My doctor is taking his sweet time about refilling my meds. I skipped a dose today because I only have one pill left. The plan was to save it until I really need it.
Based on the way I feel at the moment, tomorrow might be the day. Work has been killer.
Did you guys watch the football game?
I wasn’t going to until I heard how well the Eagles were doing.
Congrats to them!
And as usual, fuck Tom Brady.
I’m in a weird spot with my hair.
I want to grow it out and also cut all of it off.
I could take turns and do both, I suppose. My hair does have a nasty amount of breakage and split ends. The only real cure is to cut it off.
But it’s Winter. And it’s cold.
Hair keeps heat in.
I’m not sure what I really want to do.
I would love a break. I could use a vacation.
Something on an island resort. Or maybe a mountain resort. Someplace where i can be taken care of and not have to think for a while.
That would be lovely.
I’ve been really tired. I can’t tell if this is normal exhaustion or depression exhaustion.
Either way, I feel like sleeping for 17 hours straight…
It’s day 400.
I feel like there are a lot of things I could say.
Things that I probably should get of my chest. Seeing as how I know that festering feelings turn into cancer and heart disease, I should never hold anything in. I should tell everyone how I feel and let the consequences be dammed.
If I were worth a damn, that’s what I’d do.
I’m not worth damn.
And I’ve learned to repress negative emotions like a champ. I’ve been doing it for decades.
So, I’ll say thank you to my followers. Everything else, for the sake of others, shall remain deep inside.
Wonder what type of chronic illness develops?
Gonna be honest.
I don’t have anything left in the tank.
I’m beyond done.
If I could just leave, that would be wonderful.
I would start walking and never look back. I could drop everything right now.
For the record. In case anyone was wondering.
I feel as if my world likes to shift its axis every so often.
Just when I think, for half a moment, that everything is okay or things will be fine.
Next thing I know, I’m scrambling for answers again.
That what my optimism has gotten me.
I’m fairly certain that I’ll have a bachelor’s degree by the fall.
Therefore, I’ve started looking for a new career.
Ultimately, one in my chosen field would be lovely. Although, I am open to something totally new. I just need good benefits and pay.
I don’t think relocation is an option. I’m barely making ends meet in the Midwest. Living in a major job city could be more of a challenge that I’m ready for.
At any rate, I’m looking for a job again.
My son went to his first stadium concert this evening. When i asked him how it was, he only said…