Day 411: Back again

I have to go back to work tomorrow.

Hopefully, it won’t be too tragic.

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Day 409

I’m in a bad place right now.

Real bad. Like, you wouldn’t believe how bad.

Scary bad.

People ask me what’s wrong. I can’t answer. It feels like everything is wrong.

And in a way, it is. I think.

I only have the way I feel to judge by.

And everything feels bad and sad and wrong.

I don’t want to die. I have things to do.

but I wouldn’t object to a medically induced coma. That sounds nice.

Day 406: Pothole

Life has started coming at me a bit too quickly for my liking. Things are happening faster than I can process them. My emotions can’t keep up. I’m worried about burning out faster than expected. Not that I really expect to burn out…

Actually, yes I did. I did expect to wear myself down. I can tell it’s happening a bit faster with each passing day. I need to be strong right now. I don’t have time for an episode right now. People need me to al least appear that I have my shit together.

I just don’t know how long I can do this….