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Day 175: Off Day

I woke up this morning and immediately started crying.

There wasn’t anything wrong that I was aware of. Tears were just happening. I couldn’t make them stop.

So, I cried.

As a result, I’m really sensitive today. I wanted to work on some essays today, but it’s very difficult to put sentences together.

I’m going back to bed.

Day 172: Return

My son came home today. He says he had a good time but he cant tell me what he actually did. He tried, but he wasn’t very good at expressing himself verbally today. I just listened and was glad he was back. Normally, I need a break from him but several days is more than enough.

On the other hand, I’m starting to feel a little down. This happens when I spend a lot of time on my own. I enjoy my solitude most of the time, but I had a weird, lonely feeling today. I’m supposed to get some writing done but I’m having trouble finding inspiration.

Maybe I’ll feel better later.

 

Day 118: Grind

My knee feels better today. I’m glad I didn’t need to go to the hospital and I can get back to business.

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Very important business indeed.

My little world is expanding creatively. I’ve started submitting my writing in a few places. My little podcast is starting to feel like a real thing and not just something in my head. I just know my shot is just around the corner. I’ve committed myself to the work and things are beginning to move. I’m gonna be alright.

Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.

 

Day 107: Storyteller

I have lots of tales stuck in my head. Romances, adventures, things like that.

One of the things they have in common is that they all have Black woman heroines. I don’t see enough positive portrayals in society, so I have to work on it myself.

The other thing is that all these stories don’t come out when I’d like them to. I set aside time for myself to write each day. These blogs usually serve as a warm up for me. Sometimes, I can carry on after this and some days I can’t. On days that I can, it can be rough actually getting anything resembling a story out. I get character descriptions mostly and small scenes from their lives. I could maybe put a book together like that, but its really up in the air.

One of my life goals is to become a published author. Not just self published either. I know there is a lot of work and rejection ahead of me, but I refuse to let that stand in my way. My stories deserve to be told. It can’t be worse than some of the other stuff I’ve come across.

Day 104: A Quick Poem

My happiness isn’t scary or offensive. I can laugh as long and as loud as I please.

You should find some joy of your own.

My pride in myself and my Blackness has nothing to do with you.

Stay out of my way.

The way I move my body is an expression of myself. Fast or slow, I’m gonna go.

Don’t judge my groove.

I don’t smile because I don’t want to. What does that have to do with you?

You aren’t the boss of me.

I’m gonna cry. Don’t try to stop me. My tears are probably your fault. I’ll sob if I wish.

Deal with it.

Let me be angry. Let me get loud. Let me deal with my rage in a healthy way.

You don’t own me.

Stop trying to contain my emotions. They aren’t going anywhere.

Perhaps, you should.

Day 102: Scattered

My thoughts are scattered lately. I want to go in a hundred different directions. Unfortunately, that isn’t feasible. I can’t do everything as I’m a human that needs to eat and sleep occasionally.

I want to get more exposure for my writing, but I’m having a hard time finding my niche. I know there are scatterbrains like myself out there. Where are you?

I want to do more creative writing. There’s a romance idea in my head but I’m having trouble making an interesting story happen.

I want to be a better cook. Sadly, by the time I get home every evening, cooking is the last thing on my mind.

These are only a few of the things that are keeping me awake at night, mostly creative issues. Other things, I’m willing to keep to myself for now.

Day 98: Lay About

Today feels like a no pants/bra day. I don’t have a reason to leave the house. I might go find some food later, but that’s still up in the air.

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Days like this are so needed. No real obligations. No serious responsibilities. It’s awesome to have nothing to do. Relax and breathe time.

I use this time to read or play video games. There are stacks of both that I need to get to. What do you guys do with your lazy time. Leave me a comment and let me know!

Day 94: Make the World Go Round

There is no feeling in the world like playing music.

It cheers me up when I’m having an ugly day. You can see positive results from hours and hours of rehearshals. If you are lucky enough to play with a group, those are people you would probably do anything for. Music is amazing.

When your on stage and your band hits that groove, the point where you’re all having fun and feeling it. The point when you don’t care if your fingers bleed, your hands ache, or your voice starts to go. The point when the crowd gets into what ya’ll are putting down. The energy is spectacular. There’s a glow about you when your finally leave the stage. You are 100% down for anything and you feel like you could conquer the world in that moment. It’s a natural high that I hope never gets old. Some of my best memories come from those kind of nights.

I wholeheartedly believe that music is gift from the Gods. It affects everyone in some way and can bring us together across almost any barrier. If you are fortunate enough to be a musician, my hat goes off to you, my bretheren. You make me so proud. Next time you play a tune, stick your chest out a little for me. You deserve it.

 

Day 85:Break Time

Spring is officially upon us and I, for one, am thrilled. The weather today was just the right amount of warm and pleasant to make one start dreaming of summer already.

I shouldn’t be wishing my life away either. I’ve got several months before Summer.

It’s nice to have some creative projects planned for this week. I always feel like I’m not getting enough done between my full time job, my full time education, and my full time family. Getting time to be creative is at a premium these days.

I’ve free from work this week so I’ve pick out some crochet projects to work on. I’ve also started early podcast planning with Wolf. He’s super excited and I think its adorable.

I hope your Spring is full of positive possibilities.