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Day 195: Pound

Something is wrong with my head and I don’t mean the regular stuff.

I’ve been having this throbbing in my ear. I think I can hear my pulse because of the built up fluid in my head. If I hold my head the other way, it drains eventually and the throbbing stops.

It doesn’t hurt but it is annoying. I tried to look up a diagnosis, but I can’t find anything solid. I called a doctor, but nothing is available until September.

Guess I get to suffer until then.

Day 166: Mess

I’ve had a weird day. I’ve…

-woken up far too early

-flaked out of a potentially important networking event

-passed out.

-woken up with the shakes

-felt terribly guilty for making people worry about me.

I think I’m okay now, just needed to eat. It’s still a bad feeling that I know how to avoid. I failed at taking care of myself again.

Day 142: Stop and Breathe

There are a lot of things I’m working on to improve myself. My self esteem is a mess on a good day. Depression is always lurking behind every corner. I could stand to lose a few pounds, etc.

One of the major things that bothers me us my seeming inability to control my stressors. I let things pile on until I have a breakdown. Could be anything; school stress, work stress, general life stress, doesn’t matter. I don’t vent. I allow my problems to continue to weigh me down.

As I said, I know it’s an issue. It gets to the point when I can hardly function without being a wreck. Generally, a bad time for everyone around me. There are a few things that help but my depression works in a wrap around and I have no desire to take care of myself. Vicious.

There is no real point here other than I’m stressed out right now. I’m sure my overall health is being affected. I’ve started having these random stabbing pains in my head. It sucks and I have no idea when they will strike. I’ll be going about my business when I suddenly have to grab my head and moan.  The pain lingers for awhile then goes away, but it always happens again. Hopefully, its just a side effect of my stress and it isn’t a sign of something more serious.

Day 129: Q & A

Trying to stay strong is taking its toll on me, for sure. I’ve managed to catch another head cold. Everything above me neck hurts and breathing is difficult.

Inside my face, too.

I can’t fall apart just yet. I just need to survive until the weekend. Things will be fine. I know it.

I need a fun distraction. In the comments, leave a question for me and I’ll answer everything I can. Ask anything you like!

Day 64: Get It

Hello again friends! Today’s advice is particularly for the ladies, with and without vaginas.

If there’s something you want or something that will bring some real happiness into your life, there’s no reason to deny yourself. Go after it. Society tells us that we shouldn’t speak up for our own desires and we should be grateful for anything we get.

I say, to hell with that. Closed mouths don’t get fed.

The universe does not want you to be miserable all the time. There’s a time and place for everything and I believe its time for a lot of us to make our own joy a priority.

Put yourself out there. Be willing to try. The worst someone could tell you is no and if no is the answer, there almost always a way around it.

Be daring in this, loves. No risk, no reward.

I believe in us. I believe in you.

You got this.