I can always tell that my mental state is getting worse when I start resenting happy people.
I spent a lot of my time om Twitter and Facebook and people are always showing off their joys. Births, weddings, promotions and the like are all over the place. I hate when I become the guy that gets seriously irritated seeing other people’s happiness. I wrote a little rant on Twitter while I was trying to deal with my self. More feelings of inadequacy are not exactly what I need.
How do neurotypicals do it? It seems impossible to have a “normal” duration of emotions. I feel things, positive and negative, longer than others. My bad feelings are amplified by my low self-esteem and depression on top of that.
I’m tired, friends.