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Day 218:Happy Wednesday

I spent too much time relaxing this summer. I only say this because my body is having a hard time readjusting to my normal schedule. My body is sore and I’m worn out.

At the same time, I’m excited to get the school year going. I love seeing my friends progress through the year, ,even though the beginning can be rocky. We have to remember how to be at school, you know.

I’ll also do better about posting regularly. This weekend will be dedicated to getting some writing done and that includes blog posts!

Day 216: Calm Hues

Yesterday felt really nice.

I spent most of the day away from the internet. My son and I colored while watching Bob Ross reruns in the afternoon.

I needed the time to get out of my own head. Coloring was calming and having Bob Ross’ creative encouragement in the background made it more meaningful for both of us. I don’t color very often, but its a real pleasure. A different way to express the creativity is sometimes necessary.

I used to watch Bob Ross on PBS as a kid. It was always amazing to watch him create beautiful paintings as if it were nothing. On top of that, he always encouraged people to paint along with him. Bob said that one the technique was learned that it was easy. I always wanted to try it. I wanted to create masterpieces, too. I’m not sure why I never did.

Wolf and I binged Drunk History for a while after dinner. It was good to spend some quality time with him. We don’t get much time together when he works most of the day. It sounds dumb to say that I miss someone that I see daily, but this is where I find myself most days.

Hopefully, tomorrow will be mentally peaceful too. It’s the big day.

I’ll be headed back to prepare for a new school year.

Day 212: Down and Out

I have to go back to work on Tuesday.

This is a blessing and a curse. It means that I get to return to some kind of normalcy, a routine if you will. I’ll start getting paid again and seeing my work family will be nice.

At the same time, there will be more fuel for my stress train. I have to go back to pretending to be okay to get through my work day. The kids are also dealing with their own issues and all their collective energies are very draining. Plus, I still have to survive another month without a paycheck. I’m already well behind on bills and finances have been my primary source of bad feelings over the fast ten weeks. This time of year is the worst for me apart from the holidays. Back to school coupled with my son’s birthday means that I need funds. Funds are exactly what I not only don’t have, but have no access to for a while. It’s hard to explain to your kid that we have to celebrate their birthday late because there’s no money for fun.

One would think I could have prepared better. I know about my summer drought every year. I tried to save some to prepare, but my savings ran out much faster than anticipated. My expenses have grown since last year and my budgeting was way off.

I hate asking for help. Hate it. I’m stubborn and have a habit of letting things get as bad as they can. I’m still not comfortable with it but something has to give.

I have a ko-fi link on my homepage and I’ll leave my paypal here too. I also started a patreon. If you would like to donate something, it would be appreciated. Even if you can’t, I understand. I brought this on myself.

Either way, I’m glad I have regular readers. It’s nice to know that I’m not just screaming into the void. I hope you guys are having a great day.

Day 144: Gusher

I’m unsettled as I head to work this morning because of a dream.

In this dream, my class and I are wandering around a college campus for some reason. Things  were okay until one of my students bit me on the ass. It was horribly painful and he wouldn’t let go. Eventually, I wrestle him off and blood is everywhere. All over him, all over me, everywhere. I had to run around carrying another student that I no longer work with  on my hip to find some help. I ended up just using paper towels to try and stop the bleeding. I don’t think the bleeding ever stopped; I just woke up.

Very disturbing. Work is going to be a struggle today.

Day 128: Finish Strong

 

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Accurate representation of my emotional state

 

 

Today sucked a lot of energy out of me. I’m sure its just the end of the semester crunch taking hold. I’m giving work and my classes everything I’ve got and it’s starting to show.

College school and work school are almost finished and I just want to relax.

Sadly, I have a paper to finish and other things to attend to. See ya’ll tomorrow.